The Pressure of being an Asian Student

Our Accounting class had an exam on Monday, and we are getting the grades today, on Wednesday. Since I have done Accounting once before, I know the general idea of what is going on in the class. However, I am not as studious as I should be (as an Asian student). I read the textbook the day before the test just because I need to read it. For sure, I will lose a lot of points if I don't read the textbook, and I am so not going to let it happen.

Okay, back to the topic, I got one of the highest score in the previous test. It is NOT something I should be proud of. However, there are some Asian students who are not satisfied with that. They congratulated me for getting the highest score; however, I am not that stupid that I did not realize what they were actually thinking.

In this test, I don't get the highest grade (which is the biggest relief for me). An Asian girl got higher marks than me and was so proud of that fact. I am really happy for her. I really mean it. As long as I am not looked with those unsatisfying or jealous eyes, I am okay with an okay grade. ^.^ Well, I am not a saint. Of course, I also want the highest mark. However, I am so not okay with getting the highest mark and being looked at with unsatisfying eyes. Overall, I decide that as long as I am in the top range, I would be happy to get lower grades than those who want to get higher marks than everyone else no matter what.

Today, I got my Accounting grades back. I will get my Linear Algebra grades back. I am preparing to face the worst. For sure, I am not getting the highest grades in that class and I will be humble with the grade I will get.

The pressure of being an Asian student is high. I might not fit into the Asian standards of "good" students. However, I will set my own standards (which is not as high) and try my best to achieve my own goals.