JustBeingMNS

Recently I might have been more sensitive about everything. But my "supposedly"  best friend said,"I don't want you to have a higher score than me" when we are doing negotiation for the class. I personally didn't want a higher score than her. All I asked was to get the score as low as her so that I am not the only person with the lowest score. Call me crazy but she has been taking out on me for some reason. She demanded that I had a lower score than her by asking why she should deserve the lowest score. That's when it snapped me. Then, do I deserve the lowest score? I beleive I wouldn't think so if I still had the right mind. I have been tolerating her behaviors because she is my close friend. But seriously, I admit that not many people can tolerate me and I cannot tolerate many people either. So, if you want to end the friendship with me, just go ahead and tell me straight. Please do not make me waste my emotions on you. I might confront you some

          Everyone changes including myself. Then, why do I expect the relationships between these gradually-changing people to stay the same? I know I am just too foolish to have this kind of naïve thought.           As we grow older, we expand our social networks. We expand our vocabulary list and adapt other different languages. When I talk to my friends, I realize that we no longer share the same language anymore.           The language that we used to share in the past also gradually faded. The conversations between us are not as lively as before. No matter what, I strongly believe that I will find the language that we can share together again. As long as I assume that our friendship is valuable, I will never let go of it. I also hope that you do not either. Don't blame me for this innocent wish. --- MNS

Don't say this to me. Just don't say it! You don't have a right to say that. Even my parents don't say that to me. That is... " I'M DISAPPOINTED IN YOU..." I am okay with the first two or three times. But seriously?! If you use it too much, I am so going to get pissed with you. PLUS, it is not going to be the same anymore. I am just giving you a warning.

I have always reminded myself not to give up several times... I have always thought that nothing is worth giving up... I have always believed that people will rarely break their promises... Did it take me that long to realize that those are just stupid assumptions?!?!?! Nah! I knew that long before...  Yet... I just chose to keep those assumptions... It is those assumptions that make life much easier... Anyway, just want to make a point here... Just know when to give up... Sometimes, not everything/everyone is worth it... And people rarely keep their promises... Stop assuming and stop expecting... It is just tiring to do so... -- MNS

How come my intentions go wrong that easily? I am a pessimist but I always try to hope for the best. I intend to bring a harmonious result but in the end, I am the one who end up bringing a worse atmosphere to everyone. Last Saturday, I decided to have a Google Hangout with my old friends. The intention is simple: to bring old friends together and chill like old times.

Lately, a question came into my mind: how secret can a secret be? Whether we want to admit or not, we have done something in our lives that we thought we could secret from others. Believe it or not. It is just pretty easy for people to uncover the truth. They just need to accept that there are thousands of possibilities and open their eyes a bit more. The truth is just a few clicks away.

These days... I am having mixed feelings... Sometimes, I think I am enjoying the life I have... Being single and shit... I can do whatever I want... I don't need to take any one into consideration while deciding... Yes, I am enjoying my own shit...

Currently, I am attending a leadership training organized my college, called Davenport Leadership Institute (DLI). After this training, I want to transform myself from a little kid with baby steps to someone who can fly a little higher while being able to dig a little deeper. After watching a TED talk, I was a little bit relieved to hear that we all are leaders in our own ways; that we have impacted someone significantly at some point of our lives; and that we should be confident in ourselves.

Life's a bitch... What's more... I am a selfish bitch...

I am not you. And you are not me.

There are some hurts that we experience that can be forgiven but we won't forget them.   by Joyce Meyer

She thinks she gives. But he thinks she does not. Whose fault is this?